♥, Coloured jar: September 2013

ME HAHAHA

Happy mooncake festival ^^

Me working at some bar at boatquay in july-aug haha

Hey everyone, I'm finally blogging after so long and i actually even forgot that i'd a blog WTF HAHA.
Had so many things to say i mean so many things had happened to me for the past few months.
I dont know what wrong did i do but i really had alot of bad things happening. Maybe i'm just suay.

Firstly i shall start off with my work life hehe.
I've been working at Singtel for 6months already and its the longest job i've ever worked at. I really love my colleagues there in fact they are the best people i've ever got. To me, they're like my family: sis/bro liddhat. They always show so much concern for me and always giving me advices.
Thank you rb, ah hui and dajie always giving me advices for all my foolish love thoughts. They made me wake up to the reality really. And all the outings we always go out eg. ktv/supper/steamboat after work is so fun. They are very important people to me in my life ai ni men o

Secondly i'm going to talk about my poly life
Life is just pretty boring and i dont even feel like going school anymore. Its such a waste of my time wtf since every lecture and tutorial i also will fall asleep or going late, Tell me what's the point of going school?? And i dont even have any good friends there, you can say i'm a loner LOL. I admit i'm kinda unsociable like those kind i wont speak to you unless you talk to me first. I dont really care anyway how people judge me or what ahlian jiu ahlian lo. I miss my secondary school life because of my friends there. I dont have to fake my feelings or emotions. But no matter how hard isit, i will still continue school for the sake of that diploma.... :(

Thirdly, my best sisters who are always there for me really ai si ni men !
Really thank you all alot for supporting comforting me during the lowest period of me life -Dana , Kimberly , Yanni , Lynn , Hui Ni .
I'm too naive and stupid really. I even believed in all the promises and bullshit. In the end he twisted the entire story and made everything seems to be my fucking fault. I fell damn hard but not as hard as the previous where i dont see the point of me living anymore.
Everday i will think of how to go on anymore and almost every week i will go drink at least 2-3 times. And its because of you that i became such a heavy smoker as i had nothing to turn to that time, now i want quit also hard already wtf . My life is in a total mess at that point of time. I turned deaf to all my friends' advice because i believed in that if i continue to try and put in effort, things will change perhaps? LOL what a joke really, i just dont want to face up to the reality. Until now when i look back i find myself fucking stupid for all the things i had done for love wtf . After all these, i learnt how to be stronger and not fall so easily. I'm tired of everything already.
Lucky i still have my friends with me hehe especially lynn and dana i love you both so much. Thanks for helping me so much. Without both of you i really dk how to go on anymore i love you all muackk

Fourthly, after all these suay things happening to me. i realised the importance of family. My ahgong passed away on 26 July 0444. We reached the hospital at 0445. Its just 1 minute slower and he left us just like that. I was in a state of shock when the nurse told me the timing when he passed away when i reached the ward.
When i reached the ward i still see him lying on the bed peacefully so i thought everything was ok until the nurse told me. I did not know how to react in fact i stoned there for a few minutes before realising that he is really gone. i cannot accept the fact that he left me until now i still did not dare to step into his room. I have been living with him since young and he took care of me since young also. 有时候，我越想越心痛。一个人本来好好的，突然间就这样走，说走就走。Nowadays when i see old ppl outside, i will think of my ahgong. Cherish your loved one before they are gone because once they are gone, they will never come back. One whole person will just become ash and bones, nothing left. 你永远在我心里的阿公。
3 days ago my gan ah ma passed away too, So many close people to me are going. RIP ah ma i will always love you.

Hahaha okay, enough of my drama shits. I shall talk about the recent things !

Last night ktv ! 18/9/13